about me!

I just want to tell you a little about myslef so that you'll have a little bit of background information when reading my blogs. My name is Jessica Baber and I am a freshman at UNC Chapel Hill. It's my second semester and it's 10 million times better than my first semester...I'll go into more deatil later, but as for now...In highschool, I'd say I did a lot of things: I loved to read and journal, I was on the school tennis team, very involved in private piano lessons, jazz band, had a job for a semester, did track, and all of those forgotten clubs I signed up for but never really did anything for. You know what I'm talking about. Like the Beta Club--does that club ever do anything?! Oh and Key Club...let's just say that our school didn't get very involved in clubs. Our school just considered them something to put on your college application...I'm assuming our school wasn't the only one, right??

So anyways, that was highschool...now it's college...so my interests/hobbies should be about the same, right? I mean it's only been like...what?...5 months or so. But sadly, no, my interests have changed. My first semester here was a hard one, and I could have sworn that I was all alone and no one else knew what I was going through. I studied all the time, b/c hey! who wants to flunk out of college their first semester? Especially when their older sister went to the same college, and of course you had to do everything your older sister did...I mean, right??

So I decided to go to UNC because it was a "good" school and jeeze, what else could you ask for?! You got in! Therefore, you go to the hardest college you got into...!!! Or at least that's what I did...that was my logic...On August 17, 2008 I woke up pumped to go to college. CTOPS was amazingly awesome, what could go wrong? It took a while but I soon learned that sometimes things don't turn out the way you want them to.

Soo...back to where I was...I studied all the time fearing that I'd flunk out...or at least that's what I say. (It was actually just fear of failure from my own expectations...but don't tell anyone! lol ;) I had a hard time socializing. I'd get oh so lonely in my dark cell of a dorm room. And what made it even worse, me and my roommate hardly talked at all! I'd try my very best to hold a conversation with her, but it was always...yeah, no, I guess, or I don't know. I know for a fact that I had some insane moments! I honestly hated college and didn't know if I was cut out for it. My friends from home were worried about me...they were having the time of their lives at their colleges, but me....that was a diferent story.

But then something clicked during the last month and a half of school before winter break. My music theory class--which i constantly had homwwork in began to let up--and I was somehow able to manage my time. I learned time management! yay! I began hanging out with two of my friends from highschool and invited my roommate along. (We both tend to be quiet people...esp. right in the beginning.) And it was fun again! You know, like the day before classes began in August fun! lol jk. Being a Christian, I know God was providing for me. I know He put me through those hard times for a reason: to help mature me, to make me think about what I was doing in my life, to make me realize what really matters in life doesn't come from anything on earth, but only from something not of this world: Christ!

So yeah last semester was hard...but at the same time I'd go through it all again because of the way it matured me, and is still continuing to mature me...